I have just had my first......

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Award :o)
So a big thanks to Jaframity for passing this on to me.

No offence to anyone but i am going to duck out of the 7 things and nominations, my head is a bit fuzzy and full of cold at the moment so i will save that for when i am 100%

That is another reason for my lack of blogging this week, i have been totally fed up and bored of being stuck in the house.

I have been good (ish) this week, i have gone over a few points each day but personally i think bearing in mind i have been stuck indoors i am ok with that, i seriously struggle when i am bored and not even being able to take myself off for a walk has proved hard work.

I 'think' my back is starting to heal, i am going to have a walk to the post office in a while as a test, last week i walked to my Wi and suffered badly the next day so i am going to try it again and see how it reacts to it tomorrow.

I just want it to be better so i can get back to work and some normality
Sorry for the depressing posts of late, hopefully this time next week normal positivity will be resumed!

Whether i lose on the scales tomorrow is another matter, but as long as it's not a gain i can cope, i have to resign myself to the fact that i am immobile so these past weeks were never going to be a great success ww wise.

Wish me luck!

My last gain!

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Well i went to WI, the first for 3 weeks and i gained yet again :o(
fair enough it was 'only' a lb but added to all the others it means i am now over goal by 2.5lb

Having said that, i now have nothing planned, no big weekends away or parties etc until the end of March so i have no excuses and i am right on that wagon.

I have altered my tracker as i am still stuck indoors unable to do any exercise or walking so i have had to reduce the points by 2 to reflect the fact that i am doing nothing.

I NEVER thought i would see the day where i would be so frustrated about not being able to get out for a walk but i am, i just want my back to get better and be able to roam.

I really hope this goes away soon, if nothing else, there's only so much daytime tv i can take! Lol

Anyway, PMA in abundance and i WILL lose next week :o)

Another missed wi and immobolisation....

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Class was on but i went to Suffolk at the weekend and had a nasty fall, hubby says i completely left the ground, sadly i landed on my backside so i now have what i think is a bruised coccyx.

I got all ready this morning to come downstairs, look out the window and it was snowing so being a scaredy cat that i am there was no way i was going out in that!

About 6 yrs ago i had a nasty fall down the stairs, it started by landing on the top step on my backside and i bumped my way all the way to the bottom on every single step, one of those moments where you just can't stop what's happening. I couldn't do much bar alternate between lying down and sitting for about a month, so i do wonder if it was weakened in any way?

Anyway, i just hope it doesn't last as long this time as i am already going stir crazy in the house and there's only so much daytime tv i can take..... any of my friends or family will tell you i am not good at being bored!

Dietwise i didn't go so well at the weekend, no surprise there.
Because of the 8 inches of snow the family meal out had to be cancelled so my sister and i cooked, i chose to do jacket potatoes (ww recipe chilli) but my sister makes the best potato salad and coleslaw and then you add in the deserts, not forgetting the remnants of Mum's quality street.......oh dear, oh dear.

Anyway i am back home, back on the wagon and hoping to stay that when at least until Saturday when backpain permitting we are off to Watford for a 40th birthday party. It's not one i really want to miss as it's the drummer of one of the bands we go to see but there are also going to be the members of 2 of our all time favourite bands there as guests and the whispers are they are going to play :o)

The sp of last week has definitely gone down but i am still less than i was the last weigh in, i figure if i can get through these 2 weekends with a sts i will be happy, then i am back on ww with a vengeance and WILL get back to the weight i want to be.

For those of you who haven't had snow here is a pic of Mum's garden at the weekend,


Good and Bad News.....

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SP shows a loss of 5lb
Meeting is cancelled :o(

BUT

This is not an excuse to go off plan and start my weekend away early, i am determined that i will still have a good loss next week, if all goes well it might be the same or more, but we will see how i go at mums for the weekend.

I am taking a homemade chilli for friday nights dinner and all the family are going to a hungry horse pub for a meal on saturday night so i have already chosen my dinner, now all i have to do is resist a desert!

On the plus side of my meeting being cancelled my leader rang and asked me if i would kindly walk to the hall and put a note on the door for the others she couldn't contact so if nothing else i got an extra 2,500 bonus steps in :o)

It'a all going.....

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so well!

I am having a good week, my head is back in the game and so much so that i have also decided to give today's WI a miss and go to one tomorrow.

My reason for this is that I am off home at the weekend so should that 'i am going away so let's start the eating fest early' mindset appear, i have at least one more day on plan.

The way i feel at the moment that is not going to happen and i really want to be controlled when i am there but never say never, i have to a realist, i know how easily i am swayed! :o(

SP is looking good, i hope it's as good tomorrow!

Awful Motivation Tool

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And i could be lambasted for this but those that really know me also know i speak my mind.

Over the last week or so the boards seem to be full of a lot of 'returners'
People that have lost a fair bit or even got to goal and let it slip and gain all and more.

We all know stats say that a certain % of people will regain all their weight and more and of course, having been there, done that i know that all too well.

So this time i am not going to do that (please god, fingers crossed, willpower willing etc etc)
I am going to have to think of the total embarrassment if i had to present myself at 18 st 7 or possibly more and admit that i lost control, yet again.

This may seem cruel and i am not having a dig at any particular person as i know this road is darn hard but i am going to have to fight this all the way.

I do not want to go back to 5+ with my tail between my legs and having to admit i am a failure!

As for this week, so far so good,the temptation to have something 'naughty' kicked in before dinner but i managed to resist and had creamy mushrooms on a jacket spud while dear hubby had a massive 6 egg omelette and a plate of chips!

Ps......At that rate he can be a in store Santa next year Lol

Post Christmas Confession

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Oh well, it gets worse, i braved weigh in on Tuesday, or should i say i was dragged along kicking and screaming by Catcadbury from ww 5+ and i gained another 3lb.

So i have changed my ticker and you will see i am now 1.5lbs over goal again, that makes 8.5lb gain in 3 weeks but it was all deserved so i have no complaints and just maybe this has been the massive kick in the rear that i needed to sort myself out.

Saying that, all is not lost, i have still to date lost over 7 stone,i have been at goal for 7 months, i can still fit into my clothes and more importantly i have not given up and will carry on fighting this battle which i know and admit will stay with me for the rest of my life.

The most important thing i have done is keep going to class, yes i might gain one week, lose another and stay in that cycle more often than not. That is something i have to convince myself is now real life for me. I 'could' have walked out of class the day i got to goal and thought i had it sussed, and if i had, i wonder where i would be now, to be honest i KNOW i would be bigger than i am now.

I wish i could be one of these people that get to goal and say my habits have changed so much and i will never again eat crap but i know that's not me, there's no point lying to myself or to anyone else for that matter, i wouldn't have got to 18st 7 if i didn't have a problem with food would i?

I have changed in the respect that if i have a binge like i did the 3 weeks prior to Christmas i do actually get to the stage where i stop myself and need to eat healthy again, so that is a bonus.

So here we go again, i am back on the wagon, eating really well, hoping to drop some of that gain in weeks to come ....
BUT
I have the next 2 weekends away so it's not going to be easy but after that, i have no excuse!

Wish me luck and can someone stand by ready to give me a boot up the backside if they feel i am waivering?