Can i just say, no one is more amazed than me that i am even still doing this at week 60,i read back over my blog and i found a bit where at week 17 i was still amazed to be following the plan so to be this far really shocks me at times!
So anyway, weigh in today and i lost....
3lbs
Which means i got my 15th silver seven and i am now in the 10 stones :o)
Fanflippintastic!
I have been angelic this week, my first full week since getting to goal!
I definitely think texting my leader each night helped but i have to say i felt so guilty bothering her that it only lasted 3 nights but those 3 nights got me firmly back on plan.
We've been out on the bikes this weekend and totalled 25 miles so that's not too bad and we've had a lovely day out at Foxton Locks today, it was lovely to see all the pretty canal boats ,the weather was glorious and i resisted the bacon sandwiches hubby and daughter had :o)
Now the picture i really hate, i can't believe the state of my arms, i have got this far and never realised how awful they look, whether i can do anything about it now or it's too late remains to be seen but i am going to have to try something!
Wii fit is showing a good loss this week, whether it is there on Tuesday is another matter, i'd love 2lb off for my 15th silver seven but it will come at some point if not this week.
Thanks for that Cat ;o)
Anyway, i was called that because i went to my 2nd ww meeting in 2 days, same leader, same talk but i have to say it turned out to be a totally different meeting.
When i walked in Sally reminded me she was going to talk about the same as yesterday but i did admit that i didn't really hear much of yesterday's meeting as my mind was only thinking about whether i could actually maintain this loss.
I was welcomed and it was mentioned why i was there and to be honest it was great as there were quite a few people there already at goal, some that had been there a while and one lovely lady that had been at goal 3 times so it was nice to have new people to talk to that actually understood where i am in my head right now.
So all in all it was the right decision to go to another class and no disrespect to all the people i have met at my regular meeting but i am seriously thinking about having a new start at another class.
I even ended up walking home and having a chat with 2 other members which was nice as one of them was the lady who had come up to me after class, so maybe a change will keep me focused?
Well i went to wi and i gained 0.5lb, which in itself didn't bother me, i think i got away lightly but looking back over my activity tracker for the week and totalling up the cycling (39 miles) and walked (45miles) i think it's safe to say that that was what saved me from an even bigger gain.
If i am honest most of the meeting passed in a haze, no disrespect to Sally my leader but i was all of a sudden filled with this fear that i am going to do the same this week and found it hard to focus, it's hard to explain but the urgency has gone and where i would have resisted, it seems to be getting easier to cave in and have that odd treat.
Now i know i shouldn't feel so guilty and a treat is ok but i must admit i am scared that the treats will become one too many. Saying that we did have the weekend alone and that's not something that happens very often and it was the hubby's birthday but this week i have nothing on so i can have NO excuses.
Sally has asked me to text her of an evening this week to tell her what i have had points wise so hopefully i will snap back into things!
Wish me luck, i must be strong!
Ok, this is my weekend so far,
Saturday 5.30am , eat breakfast and go to work, determined to stay on plan considering Friday was the first day i had stayed within points since WI.
8.00 am, colleague turns up and the conversation somehow turns to Maccy Ds , not hard when you consider we both used to have them for breakfast every day pre ww, but we resist....
10am and 4 hrs work later my resolve is weakening and no sooner than we mention it again i am over the road buying 3 breakfasts for us and another weak minded colleague!
Ok, not the end of the world points wise, i can make that up can't i?
Well i could if i didn't then leave off at 12 and go for a coffee with the same colleague, the coffee turned into a hot chocolate and in for a penny, i also had a slice of Banana Cake AND Cream...
Oh dear,
So i get home and try to point it all up somehow, by this time i am thinking, 'oh forget it' and eat a Crunchie!
So with all this in mind and the fact it is hubby's birthday this weekend and my daughter is away so we have the house to ourselves i decide i might as well have the weekend off.....
So he texts me to say he is on his way home from work, at that point i decide we might as well go out for dinner.
We drive out to a lovely little pub and i have sirloin steak, chips, mushrooms soaked in oil, onion rings and peas , i of course then need a desert so follow it up with Apple Pie and Ice Cream!
I have to say it was lovely and i didn't feel guilty!
Waking up this morning and wishing him a Happy Birthday i thought it would be cruel to stress about getting back on the wagon and ruining his day worrying about points so i decide to have today off too.....
Lunch was,
2 rather yummy crusty rolls with ham and cheese, a mini pork pie, a scotch egg and REAL walkers crisps, followed by not one but TWO doughnuts!
By 2.30 i am asleep on the sofa, something i haven't done for absolutely months and months but i felt awful, i was so lethargic that waking up at 4pm i decided the only thing to do was go for a bike ride.
So 10 miles and an hour of cycling later something has clicked again, i have slapped myself hard and realised i was kidding myself, i haven't had a weekend off, i have just made myself ILL!
So as i am typing this i am sat with a bottle of cold water and a packet of Rennie Deflatine's, i am so full i can't even contemplate a cup of tea so let this be a lesson to myself, treats might be nice at the time but i ultimately pay the price and i just hope i remember this next time i am tempted!
BMI that is, not age (sadly)
Rather chuffed that the 1lb loss at wi took me to 24, as being stuck on 25 made me feel i was only just healthy so to drop down another point is good news!
Hopefully i am feeling a bit more motivated this week, i am determined not to pick, we shall see if it lasts but i did start off well as i walked home from my meeting in the heat, so already at 1.30pm i have done 13,001 steps and already earned myself 2.5 bonus points.
We will more than likely go out again on the bikes tonight, we seem to be averaging about 10 miles a night so long may the nice weather remain :o)
for the week.
As you can tell i haven't had the best of weeks but in reality its nothing like i would have been pre ww, i feel like i have done nothing but pick, mostly it has been 0.5 lollies or 1point french fries and the like but i feel like i have been permanently eating, not good.
I must break this cycle, it seems the urgency has gone and i must sort this asap, on the brighter side once upon a time i would have been diving into a bag of giant buttons that i think are 22 points alone so all is not lost.....yet!
On the exercise front i have been an angel, considering i had 2 lazy days Tuesday and Wednesday i have finished the ww week having cycled 60 miles and walked 52 so we will see how it all balances out tomorrow, watch this space.